To Every Girl I've Ever Loved

Starting to lose compassion for the plight of women
They deviate from good and go straight for the demons
I sit here wishing to give my heart to another
But I'm stuck here always being a brother
So much to offer to those wallowing cause of their hurt
But they avoid me and I'm left here staring at the dirt
I flirt, in spurts, but my hear remains alert
As I see all those losers who are perverts
Snatching women like it's a business venture
But I'd venture to guess that I'd get lost in that adventure
If this was my world, women would have discretion
Then again there would be no more of these rapping sessions
My source of sadness gets me money and fame
This is madness and I am sick of these games
When I look in the mirror everything doesn't peel
I know that my heart, mind, and soul are real
Wishing to be direct and upfront from the start
Like an online sale, I'll add you to my cart
So that we could never be broken apart
This is the truest desire of my heart
It is deep and too surreal to feel
A form of mass appeal that heals
Forget the games, let's scrap the tourney
So take my hand, and let's go on an a journey
Never harmed the heart or soul of a female
Finally allow my love to avail all the way to the veil
Hail, the passion that will never fail or go on sale
I'm ready to set sail in a full-scale quest
Please try your best to stay true to your chest
I stand here with my heart on a platter
Now please, oh please don't let it splatter

The Message

Trying to be deep and positive
But that's not the life we live
So much darkness that my eyes get blacker
The truth is revealed and I spot my attacker
Yet I choose to ignore his crimes against my mind
And see the good in him that's lagging behind
Most are quick to see dark but not light
I'll do what I can to make him feel alright
This type of love is not often revealed
But it's so real, you can feel it appeal
To those lost in the abyss of the modern world
Confused and battered, shattered cause everything's twirled
While these thoughts remain in my mind bottled
Like my soul says stop but my heart's pushes the throttle
Wanna win the emotional lotto, but God knows that couldn't happen
Again feeling frustrated cause Uncle Sam's society's trapping
Mapping people's thoughts to his own concerns
I'm coming here to rescue and to burn
The plastic of those who are bound and stained
Letting them to know to stay and remain
The course, drive the workforce and ride the workhorse and stop living in remorse
But of course, allow the light to be torched and fight the source of this madness
Grab this, nab this, trap this as I rap this
As we all begin to feel bliss knowing the ignorance is missing
Ignore the enemies of the cause and those who are dissing
They will never see the sincerity or charity in my hospitality
It's certainly a rarity, but they won't dare to believe the actuality
Too good to be true and I can't say that I blame them
But this fame hasn't changed me, I'm the exact same in spite of the phlegm
I'm a gem from birth but I'm also cursed
With the worries of the world as the end comes to this verse
 

Apathetic

The world has much apathy
Yet somehow it's evading me
Could the world spare me some?
As I never seem to find the sun
Just when everything's back in place
Despair lands me back flat on my face
I have no trace of how I lost this race
Like all of my caring has gone to waste
I wish I could find a way to erase
The longing to touch base
That I could lose my haste
Stop worrying about what I can't control
As I sit here spewing vomit in a bowl
This life of uncertainty has taken its toll
And the analytical nights begin to take hold
My soul's growing weary and I'm starting to see mold
My boldness withers and what I wished for has come true
Wondering if the raven black streaks help the blue
Feeling like a fool as I drool in my wallowing
As my soul begins to wane and I continue hollowing
Before long, what makes me human will surely pass
And that fake sense of happiness will come at last.

It's official that you're superficial
As I stand outside blowing my whistle
Everybody's clueless cause I've already been threw this
But screw this, I peruse this but nobody cares
All they do is stare, stuck in their perpetual lair
Their pair of eyes used to surprises and goodbyes
Not used to sunrises only rain downpours
Numb their spirits cause your heart's been robbed poor
Expecting disappointment but expressing glee
But you don't have to be a rocket scientist to see
What you're trying to be won't comply with me
I feel and steal only what I see is real
Watch as I peel and you see real
So surreal but you heal, it's definitely a big deal
It's quite a feat to get back up on your feet
You start to speak and you're not sounding bleak
You've mounted Pike's Peak
Your heart isn't feeling weak
You're looking sweet, it's definitely a treat to lay these beats
Knowing that you will play them on repeat
You are amazing and the only thing in your way is your mind
Once you overcome it, you'll see that you truly are one of a kind

Knights & Zombies

I have a wandering brain
Full of life and of stains
Watch as I gain fame
My name appearing in the flashing lights
Appealing to the souls of those who can't sleep at night
Slighted for speaking their heart
Trying to halt you from the start
But they will never break apart
Your heart, mind, and soul
Can't force them into the mold
Trying to make you feel cold
Your trinity is better than gold
And watch as I become more bold
So far from gone and so far from sold
This is the end of their silly games
Nothing they can do to stop this Name

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies

Watch as they recuperate
Try their hand at changing fate
This is a dish best served cold on their slate
A slate full of dirt and maggots on their plate
I'm feeling great, knowing all that's at stake
Will be won, as the sun shines down on my lyrical gun
This is beyond fun, knowing I've spun chaos in the system
Repairing all of the damage and baggage forced upon the victims
The time to rise is past the sunrise
We will surprise and surmise the truth we all know
So I'm waiting for my knights to come, let's go

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies

And as we ride with Calvary
We will watch as every
Doubter cowers in the face of his demise
And watch as we celebrate, before the sunrise

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies

My Own Dark Passenger

These melancholy feelings won't go away
But if I'm honest I don't want to feel ok
These emotions feel more alive than ever
They are the only ones I relate to forever
These hues only show black and blue
Only peace I find is when I snooze
The loss of consciousness is surreal
Better than society, but still far from real
Happiness seems so vain its insane
Its the goddamn bane of my rainy brain
This darkness festering inside is not violent
No red in my life so the palette could never be violet

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Inside my soul is so much gold
But society tells me to mold
Hold on to what I deem most precious
To make my rhymes feel the freshest
But these sessions reveal only what I feel
So real that it will appeal to others who feel
Seal their hearts in tight cause this cold world just might
Take that which they fight and die for and bring it to night
Descend it into the pits and depths of hell
If you can't already tell, I'll never sell
My soul or my heart to be apart
Devil, you can't add me to your cart

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

My emotions are scary cause they are my reality
But in actuality, they make me feel at ease
I know when I look at the mirror there is something there
Not phony or fake, my heart is so big it can bear
The harsh reality of the actualities of this cold world
While every other mirror is broken and curled
Their reality is fantasy yet its similar to mine
But shit, they forgot to bring their minds!
Lagging behind, searching for it but they can't find
What makes us human all along
You're on the right track if you're listening to this song
The body needs food to survive
But the soul needs love to thrive

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Concerning My Future Wife(?)

Through all my allegories and fancy stories
And all of my dark fantasies that are boring (stop snoring!)
I don't want any glory
But I am roaring and soaring
Ignoring all of the haters and demonstrators
Traitors who try to take my credit
But I won't ever sweat it (even if it's debit)
Won't ever regret it, but I sitting here dreading
Sweating my number one passion
All of this compassion
Left to waist cause I'm all alone
Left to fend for my own, my weary bones can't grasp the phone
I'm known but I'm not in love
As I watch a pair of doves flying above
A perfect irony right above my head
Mating but not in love, it's all about the bed?
I'm ahead of the game and I'm not searching for fame
Just looking for someone who can tame this sad mind
A girl who isn't lagging behind and who is one of a kind
Get me out of this bind, help me wind the sands of time
Help me finally feel better than just fine
Whether a 10, 9.5, or 9
I'll still pine for more than just your body
I just really want a significant somebody
Fucking sick of being lead on and lied too
Don't play me like a live game, I'm too much to tame
Too intense for your perks, you're nothing but a jerk
I'm convinced I was born on the wrong earth
From my birth, all of my worth since I've spawned was a sacred bond
But again I'm disappointed because these girls never give me what I wanted
As if what I wanted was too much, my love life is truly haunted
To appease me could you please stop being a tease?
On my knees, begging you please, stop making me squeeze these heart fees
But my pleas reach deaf ears, and through all these years and tears all of my fears
Have been realized and my worn out eyes are growing accustomed to the lies of those pretty faces
As I tie my shoelaces and continue walking
Continue acting like nothing's wrong and keep on talking
But it's apparent I'm balking, as my soul starts stalking the impossibility of a soul mate
A woman who isn't flaky, doesn't make me feel achy (or shaky), and who lets me know it's ok
I begin to feel weightless, and fateless, though that's not a word
Better update Webster's cause this sad soul so injured its absurd
Never harming but always feeling harmed
Feeling self pity, but never causing pity
This sad city's streets are feeling too cold for me feet
But the length of this verse in the universe will be a damn feat (ain't it neat?)
I cling to these metaphors and alliterations
My truly tattered and torn heart is splattered
Yet it is flattering to the world cause of the beat
These frustrations never end and I feel defeated
My enemies have won and the sun has set
The night begins to rise, and my soul is dead

Don't Worry About It

I know what it means to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders
Life throws huge boulders and it doesn't help that the cool world's getting colder
But I assure that you have strength you never knew existed
A swift sense of assurance and insurance that you missed it
Find your happiness and dwell on that
Pretend for a moment, act like you were chosen
And spread love to this broken earth

Don't worry about it
Life's a struggle but it's not impossible
You have an alliance, an unspoken compliance
With what you know isn't really plausible
But you've gotta learn to audible
And let what you don't believe take the play

Before the swift tide of life takes you under
Cause of all of your bad choices and blunders
Restore by believing in hope
It will really help you cope
So when the doubters say nope
Don't end this life by the end of a rope
And believe in what you can't see
Although you know its far from an improbability


Don't worry about it
Life's a struggle but it's not impossible
You have an alliance, an unspoken compliance
With what you know isn't really plausible
But you've gotta learn to audible
And let what you don't believe take the play

The age old question of His existence
Can't be solved in an instance
Scholars spend an entire existence
Con science to try and find his essence
But His presence is preying their conscience
Cause He's the only one who's always been constant


Don't worry about it
Life's a struggle but it's not impossible
You have an alliance, an unspoken compliance
With what you know isn't really plausible
But you've gotta learn to audible
And let what you don't believe take the play

Inter|mission|

LOVE. Lots of LOVE. Forego yourself, and dwell on others. Your problems decrease the less time you devote to yourself. Your mind eventually gets to a place of peace, and all of your personal strife ceases to feast on the battered human condition. I know not everyone will accept it, in fact, most probably won't, but if this record can cause just ONE more person to live their life in love, than my mission will survive Though these tunes are usually blue, I am speaking to you when I say to care about those around you. You'll feel renewed, and by the moonshine, these lines will ring true in your life, and I'll finally be able to sleep at night.