Saturday, October 29, 2011

The Rising Darkness

Act 1: The Coming Storm

(As the dawn approaches, the knights ready their defense against the coming storm. The dark night of despair and heartbreak awaits. Survival. Revival. Rinse. Repeat. Making sure their feet don't grow weak. The days turn to weeks and their leader begins to speak. Searching for souls to seek. Looking for the hearts of the meek. Before the end, he finishes with the start of his speech.)

Always Alone
I always feel alone
Left to sort shit on my own
Realizing why everyone's getting stoned
Hearing myself as I sleep and moan
Groan, cause of your consistently negative tone
Strip all my flesh, break all my bones
Don't even know all the contacts on my phone
All I ever wanted was a place to call home
A fortress with strong gates, my own type of Rome
The dome of my truest thoughts and wishes
Where my dreams align with my superstitions
But, who do I think I am fooling with these rhymes?
Yet maybe one day, I'll find someone who understands these lines

I feel vacancy
But they drink Hennesy
I feel everything
But they see anything
I am misunderstood
But they are always good

My own shadow lies to me
Looks like a partner in crime but it never says hi to me
But it tries to be the only thing left inside of me
I'm a lover not a fighter but there's a fire burning
An inferno blazing as it's churning
Murdering the remnant of my heart
Rips me from side to side and from part to part
Every girl I've loved doesn't love me back
Forgetting my existence, how fair is that?
I'm trapped, in these raps, my life's out of wack
As if something evil's put my soul under attack
Could you imagine that?
My truest thoughts are trapped in a traveling pack
As if they were presents wrapped for Christmas stacks
Even then, the viewer opens and is confused
Only to be kept in the dust, unused
Tossed around, battered, and bruised
Quick, go to church, but, these pews
Only broadcast opposing views
As I lay awake, stuck in a muse
Strung out beyond normality
My own kind of insanity
While vanity consumes this earth
The curse from my birth
Is the weight of these worries
They make my mind blurry
Doesn't help my case with the jury

I feel vacancy
But they drink Hennesy
I feel everything
But they see anything
I am misunderstood
But they are always good

The world has much apathy
Yet somehow it's evading me
Could the world spare me some?
As I never seem to find the sun
Just when everything's back in place
Despair lands me back flat on my face
I have no trace of how I lost this race
Like all of my caring has gone to waste
I wish I could find a way to erase
The longing to touch base
Stop worrying about what I can't control
As I sit here spewing vomit in a bowl
This life of uncertainty has taken its toll
And the analytical nights begin to take hold
My soul's growing weary and I'm starting to see mold
My boldness withers and what I wished for has come true
Wondering if the raven black streaks help the blue
Feeling like a fool as I drool in my wallowing
As my soul begins to wane and I continue my hollowing
Before long, what makes me human will surely pass
And that fake sense of happiness will come at last.

I feel vacancy
But they drink Hennesy
I feel everything
But they see anything
I am misunderstood
But they are always good

My Own Dark Passenger
These melancholy feelings won't go away
But if I'm honest I don't want to feel ok
These emotions feel more alive than ever
They are the only ones I relate to forever
These hues only show black and blue
Only peace I find is when I snooze
The loss of consciousness is surreal
Better than society, but still far from real
Happiness seems so vain its insane
Its the goddamn bane of my rainy brain
This darkness festering inside is not violent
No red in my life so the palette couldn't be violet

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it changes my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Inside my soul is so much gold
But society tells me to mold
Hold on to what I deem most precious
To make my rhymes feel the freshest
But these sessions reveal only what I feel
So real that it will appeal to others who feel
Seal their hearts in tight cause this cold world just might
Take that which they fight and die for and bring it to night
Descend it into the pits and depths of hell
If you can't already tell, I'll never sell
My soul or my heart to be apart
Devil, you can't add me to your cart

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it changes my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

My emotions are scary cause they are my reality
But in actuality, they make me feel at ease
I know when I look at the mirror there is something there
Not phony or fake, my heart is so big it can bear
The harsh reality of the actualities of this cold world
While every other mirror is broken and curled
Their reality is fantasy yet its similar to mine
But shit, they forgot to bring their minds!
Lagging behind, searching for it but they can't find
What makes us human all along
You're on the right track if you're listening to this song
The body needs food to survive
But the soul needs love to thrive

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it changes my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Paranoia of an Insomniac
My eyes are oh so dreary
But clearly, I need you dearly
Please be, please me, please see?
Look at what we could be
See me, could you at least tease me?
My mind is wandering across the universe
No kind of pondering feels worse
How is that love causes so much pain
Like looking for sunshine but finding rain
Such an irony, my optimism begins to wane
I gain nothing from this heart of stain
But everyone else is feeling the same
Feeling lame, knowing most of what I do will be in vain
The only good in my whole life will be its bane

Sleep eludes me
Fools me, school's me
Rules me
I find no source of rest
As my chest is put to the test
It weighs heavily on my soul
So much so it's breaking hold
Making me feel cold
But I'll always be bold
Breaking the mold
A new form of gold
Now drop your cards and fold

Still there's something to be said for being unique
Even if I have several judges looking to critique
And this cold hard world's looking much to bleak
I attempt to the next realm to sneak a peak
My body is ready but my soul's so weak
So many people willing to die for holy causes
Rather than peering into what would cause this
Pause this, rewind this, bind this, can anybody find bliss?
Cling to text with no second guessing
So much so you're making me stressing
I wonder why I feel so left out in the church steeples
God's own people have turned into America's bravest sheople
Regardless, I have just as many faults if not more
Arrogance, pessimism, and always wanting more
But I won't mope cause I have hope in my ability to cope
So nope, I won't end by hanging from the noose of a rope

Sleep eludes me
Fools me, school's me
Rules me
I find no source of rest
As my chest is put to the test
It weigh heavily on my soul
So much so it's breaking hold
Making me feel cold
But I'll always be bold
Breaking the mold
A new form of gold
Now drop your cards and fold

I need somewhere to nest at night
Somewhere where I can start feeling alright
These midnight frights feel not right and the loss of sight and the new heights
Are causing me to lose light and making black and white less tight, I just might lose my might
And my will to fight is starting to feel trite cause I'm always wanting to be alright, tonight
The demons' bites makes the brightness fade
As this music plays
But nothing sways
So go ahead and pray
Nothing left here to slay
My soul's got nothing left to pay
As I ask the Lord...
What do You say?

Sleep eludes me
Fools me, school's me
Rules me
I find no source of rest
As my chest is put to the test
It weigh heavily on my soul
So much so it's breaking hold
Making me feel cold
But I'll always be bold
Breaking the mold
A new form of gold
Now drop your cards and fold

Inter|mission
Above all else, the cure is love.
It always falls back to love and song.
Apathy is destroying the human condition.
The only way to heal is through compassion.
Kindness.
Honesty. 
Faith.
Hope.
But love's the most important.
Let us love each other.
And slay the darkness together.

Act II: First Blood

False Judgments
Hypocrites be bitching
Itching to be snitching
Cross-stitching insults with prayer
They dare ask the Lord to care
His presence is barren
So why are you still staring
At someone you’d never give a shit about
While you continue to spit and pout
What authority have you even gained
From my perspective, everybody’s stained
We’ve all got scars
So enough with the tar
Please start to become real
Stop the court-appeals
And learn to love
Cause it’s stemmed from above

Stop judging what you don't understand
Don't act like you know what it means to be a man
I live the best I can
But your judgments pile up like grains of sand
God, please oh please deliver me from this wretched land

Assumptions are swift and fiery thoughts
Stemming from being wrongly taught
They carry more weight than character
While you sit, point, and stare at her
For being a whore and white trash
Nothing she can do when she's outta cash
Selling herself to gain money and self-esteem
But on your high council has decided and deemed
Her as a harlot and a slut
Without looking at the rotting in your gut
Can't say I'd be different with my observations
The golden rule is just a guideline
So much that it blows my mind
So many know, so few follow it
We could all learn to grow, instead we hollow it
In the end, what goes around comes around
So beware of the words you mutter with that treacherous sound

Stop judging what you can't understand
Don't act like you know what it means to be a man
I live the best I can
But your judgments pile up like grains of sand
God, please oh please deliver me from this wretched land

Lord, how come your place of refuge is rejecting
As if the harshness of the world must become resurrecting
I feel more alone than ever in the pale cathedrals
Feeling dull, as your sermons lull and pull me to sleep
Already feeling like a creep, and a freak, for letting my mind speak
Tell me to be meek, I'm already a geek, my soul's already weak
As your idolatry reeks, even though you pray daily every week
Don't tell me how to live my life
God already gives me enough strife

Stop judging what you can't understand
Don't act like you know what it means to be a man
I live the best I can
But your judgments pile up like grains of sand
God, please oh please deliver me from this wretched land

Vanity's Insanity

Strange how dark poses as light
When the blackness consumes our sight
We fear what we do not see
But not the vacancy in glee
Posessions corrupt the mind and soul
Distracting us from the heavenly goal
Our conscience is sold
By seeking for gold
Watch the light and dark fold
And the world comes cold
We search for currency as if it were religion
And take others regardless of permission
This is no mere superstition
Just look at your ambition

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed

Watch as the Master's whip
Causes one to stumble and trip
The Son of the Morning Star has gone too far
Degrading the human condition, our souls are tarred
Goodness is barred
Don't bother standing guard
This is not a tale of a bard
The striving for money will never be content
And the darkness inside you will never relent
We must break free from the chains of greed
And plant the seeds to destroy the weeds

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed

The fight for freedom will not be easy
In fact, your stomach will become queasy
Spiritual warfare is stirring of your heart
So don't let the Devil add you to his cart

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed 

Through These Trying Times
Ever see your thoughts unraveling?
In another hemisphere traveling
Every good deed can be unseen
While bad sticks out like fire lit kerosene
I am getting flustered
While everything’s clustered
I lay in my sleepless nights
Panicked, upset by the frights
Sick of these spiritual fights
Too scared to switch the lights
These words get trite
Don’t make them less right

Through these trying times
I cling to these lines
They’re all one of a kind
These are the thoughts in my mind
As I rest and unwind
Writing these strange rhymes
While I still feel sublime
How many damn times can I rhyme in these lines
Before I feel a peace of mind
Through these trying times

Bros are telling me to stop stressing
While girls are far from my blessing
Arrogance is the new appeal
Humility is much too real
I’m a nice guy but I’m not a fool
I watch you sneak a drool at the fools
Who are nothing more than tools
Looking for another trophy to rule

All I ever wanted was something to rely on
Sick of girls playing me like a damn con
A sense of contentment never lasts
And bitter memories keep creeping back
Too much for you to love, not enough to hate
Why must you go, please, why can’t you stay?

Through these trying times
I cling to these lines
They’re all one of a kind
These are the thoughts of my mind
As I rest and unwind
Writing these strange rhymes
While I still feel sublime
How many damn times can I rhyme in these lines
Before I feel a peace of mind
Through these trying times

Liars dominate this landscape
Making it so hard to make
A name for my stake
In this cold place
Of dissent
My descent
To madness is complete
The sadness which makes me weak
The cycle repeats
As do these beats
Seems I can't take the heat
Life's a game of trick or treat
All about who you meet and greet
So take a seat, let me rap a feat
I'll be wanted more than stars in cleets
Regardless, my mind is a mess
Too much stress, not enough rest
Not enough sleep for my weary chest
Lest I be successful with these teary tests

Through these trying times
I cling to these lines
They’re all one of a kind
These are the thoughts within my mind
As I rest and unwind
Writing these strange rhymes
While I still feel sublime
How many damn times can I rhyme in these lines
Before I feel a peace of mind
Through these trying times


(The knights grow weary, and the nights grow long. Thinking the fight was a farse all along. The depths of sadness are nearly reached, and the demons latch onto their souls like leeches. The end is nigh. The wounded leader rises and begins to speak. His message is clear and succinct. Hope begins to take hold. The night begins to fade, and light is seen on the horizon. The moon slowly disappears, and tears are seen at the arrival of the sun...)

Act III: A Glimmer of Hope

Feeling Alright (I'm Soaring)

All these girls act the same
Seeking men for their fame
Attempting to tame, as if they got game
He's sitting there stuttering, forgetting your name
Muttering his mumblings while stumbling cause you're bumbling
The worse you are, the more women will like you
The better you are, the more women will use you
It's a vicious cycle of neglect and abuse
While I sit here all battered and bruised
Not on my body but in my heart
Should've known from the start
Weary of loneliness yet wishing to be apart
Like aiming for a bulls eye but forgetting the darts
Yet I am assured of this
My soul feels bliss
Despite of the dissing
And backstab kissing
Who is gonna be losing in the end
Karma's coming around the bend
In the end, I'll find my significant other
While you sit there crying to your mother
How there are no good men, not even brothers
You smother the bad boys, abandon the good guys
I'm fed up with this and I'm starting to realize
Can't say you won't be full of regrets
Don't come running to me with frets
Tests, or your random sets of being upset
I'm in my own zone of serenity
Nothing you can do to chaos this harmony

I'm feeling better than before
My heart isn't torn
My mind isn't sore
I'm soaring
Though I don't know why
I don't need reasons to fly
Cause I'm feeling alright

The light shades in the dark
Thus begins the spark
So bright it's stark
Like a flying Tony Stark
My lyrics hit the mark
As we fill these parks
Blinded by the light
Seeing the flight
Of the angels at night
It's better than the Wrights
Soaring on wings like eagles
Gollum's gone and it's the return of Smeagol
The darkness is swayed and my sin is paid
As the music plays and evil's slain
The outcome's changing
My soul's not raging
Heart has broken the cage
As I listen to the old Sage
The Author of my pages
This war begins to wage
But He's already paid
The price of my grave

I'm feeling better than before
My heart isn't torn
My mind isn't sore
I'm soaring
Though I don't know why
I don't need reasons to fly
Cause I'm feeling alright

My thoughts are so deep
They’re a damn feat
And they’ll sweep you off of your feet
Rewind that, repeat
Hypnotized by the beat
And a logic so steep
May put you to sleep
As my heart begins to beat
And my emotions run so deep
My language should be fucking bleeped

I'm feeling better than before
My heart doesn't feel torn
My mind isn't bored
I'm soaring
Though I don't know why
I don't need reasons to fly
Cause I'm feeling alright

BE(loved)

So easy to be pessimistic in this dreary place
Stranger still is I can't find where to trace
Or how to erase
Even stare in the face
The start of the despair
The inability to bear
The pain of this big landscape
There is, however, the ultimate escape
Hard to come by but important still
The most expensive life bill
So expensive it kills
Brings my spine to a chill
The feeling is so real
So real but so hard to feel
My soul starts to heal
As if God and the Devil had a deal
My heart is sealed
The elixir of life is love
You know why?
Because it's stemmed from above

Beloved, let's begin to love each other
Start treating each other like brothers
Stuck in this cold but beautiful world together
Don't let the shrill and unpredictable weather
Bring you down whether through war and pain
His love came and removed all the stains
No one left to blame cause He's taken all the shame
So come help resurrect what's left of the shattered masses
And let them know of the God who gives second chances

I'll let you know that I love you
Do whatever I can to make you never feel blue
Don't act like you haven't got a clue
This love has made life have better hues
Things are much clearer, no longer need to check my rear mirror
The past is all but a time period and the future is looking realer
Previously an impossibility but can't you see that this love is changing me
Phasing me, the past's no longer chasing me, I'm finally feeling free
Feeling so much glee, cause my fees are absolved and my chains broken free
These words don't give the sense of peace justice
But believe me and trust this
Never felt so adamant in my whole existence
Usually feeling down but this experience
Is lifting me to a place I've never explored
So high so that I could never feel bored
Life's vacancy is finally filled and killed
Drilled, willed, billed cause it's finally real
The old emptiness begins to peel
Let the demons feed on it for their meals
Like a lion roaring towards veal
Regardless I feel weightless
My soul's freedom's left me breathless
Satan you can't catch this, trap this, wrap this
As I'm rapping this
Cause I'm finally feeling bliss

Beloved, let's begin to love each other
Start treating each other like brothers
Stuck in this cold but beautiful world together
Don't let the shrill and unpredictable weather
Bring you down whether through war and pain
His love came and removed all the stains
No one left to blame cause He's taken all of the shame
So come help resurrect what's left of the shattered masses
And let them know of the God who gives second chances

The brood of vipers will attempt to strike me down
But those damn clowns are so stuck and bound
By the rules they cling to that when they hear this sound
They won't be around, the truth will spin them right round
My convictions are much to sound
While they sit worrying about their pounds
Greed drives their motivations to fill the coffers
Dead man's bones despite the fact their offers
They are scoffers in a world filled with criticism
Causing schisms in God kingdoms cause of their cynicism
Regardless, I must choose to love
It's what God wants
Cause He's the Author stemming from above

Beloved, let's begin to love each other
Start treating each other like brothers
Stuck in this cold but beautiful world together
Don't let the shrill and unpredictable weather
Bring you down whether through war and pain
His love came and removed all the stains
No one left to blame cause He's taken all the shame
So come help resurrect what's left of the shattered masses
And let them know of the God who gives second chances


The Willingness to Die
I am going to die
It's written in the Book of Life
I know I'll fly high
Sigh, it'll be at night
It won't end with a brawl or a fight
Rather just a fading of light
But in the end it'll be alright
Although I just might
Be worried cause of my frights
Realize things aren't so black and white
Before I lose all of my sight
Gotta see what's wrong from right

I am going to die
It's a matter of time
My darkest fears
And all my tears
Will be concealed
And healed
I finally won't feel blue
Lord, I'll finally be with you

Always tough to abide
By these societal laws so I hide
Lied, cried to conceal the sensitive side
So much so I've often thought suicide
But that wouldn't be right
Reminded life'll be alright
So how can I say goodbye
And feel alright
To leave people's side
At this time of night...
I always wondered how I'll go out
Wonder how it'll go down
I really don't think I'll frown
I'll be Potter at the King's crown
My willingness will give me a stone
And I won't be alone
I'll be grown
I won't groan
I'll be home
No need to moan
Everything will fall into place
Everything will be erased
Talk about a clean slate
Talk about fate
I have an irreversible date
With death
I'll lose breath
But I won't mind
I'll lose the mind
The ultimate unwind
The only kind
Now wind the clock
Help me meet Pac
Become an angel in the clouds
Where love and happiness abound
How good does that sound?
Makes me wanna be in the ground

I am going to die
It's just a matter of time
My darkest fears
And all of my tears
Will be concealed
And healed
I finally won't feel blue
Lord, I'll finally be with you

There's no greater love than to die for friends
So please help me Lord, when my life does end
Make it worth it
Comfort my mom cause she won't get it
God, I love her
I'll never meet another
With that much love
So send comfort from above
Help her the way only you can
Send down the one they call the Son of Man

I am going to die
It's a matter of time
My darkest fears
And all of my tears
Will be concealed
And healed
I finally won't feel blue
Lord, I'll finally be with you


Act IV: The Beginning of the End

Knights & Zombies

I have a wandering brain
Full of life and of stains
Watch as I gain fame
My name appearing in the flashing lights
Appealing to the souls who can't sleep at night
Slighted for speaking their heart
Trying to halt you from the start
But they will never break apart
Your heart, mind, and soul
Can't force them into the mold
Trying to make you feel cold
Your trinity's better than gold
And watch as I'm more bold
So far from gone and so far from sold
Destiny's light is clear in sight
So come prepared for the fight

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies

Watch as they recuperate
Try their hand at changing fate
This is a dish served cold on their slate
A slate full of dirt and maggots on their plate
I'm feeling great, knowing all that's at stake
Will be won, as the sun shines down on my lyrical gun
This is beyond fun, knowing I've spun chaos in the system
Repairing all of the damage and baggage forced upon the victims
The time to rise is past the sunrise
We will surprise and surmise the truth we all know
So I'm waiting for my knights to come, let's go

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies

As we ride with Calvary
We will watch as every
Doubter is empowered in the face of his surprise
And watch as we celebrate, before the sunrise

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies



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