My Own Dark Passenger

These melancholy feelings won't go away
But if I'm honest I don't want to feel ok
These emotions feel more alive than ever
They are the only ones I relate to forever
These hues only show black and blue
Only peace I find is when I snooze
The loss of consciousness is surreal
Better than society, but still far from real
Happiness seems so vain its insane
Its the goddamn bane of my rainy brain
This darkness festering inside is not violent
No red in my life so the palette could never be violet

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Inside my soul is so much gold
But society tells me to mold
Hold on to what I deem most precious
To make my rhymes feel the freshest
But these sessions reveal only what I feel
So real that it will appeal to others who feel
Seal their hearts in tight cause this cold world just might
Take that which they fight and die for and bring it to night
Descend it into the pits and depths of hell
If you can't already tell, I'll never sell
My soul or my heart to be apart
Devil, you can't add me to your cart

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

My emotions are scary cause they are my reality
But in actuality, they make me feel at ease
I know when I look at the mirror there is something there
Not phony or fake, my heart is so big it can bear
The harsh reality of the actualities of this cold world
While every other mirror is broken and curled
Their reality is fantasy yet its similar to mine
But shit, they forgot to bring their minds!
Lagging behind, searching for it but they can't find
What makes us human all along
You're on the right track if you're listening to this song
The body needs food to survive
But the soul needs love to thrive

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain