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I may not have the best six pack, the most clever sense of humor, the cutest face, or the best swagger. But I guarantee you this; no one can take care of you the way I can...

It's All a Game

It's all the same
This vacant search for fame
And a reason to bear the name
Because of our mad game
We hope to leave the outcasts lame
Not realizing all the pain
The severity is insane
I'm barely left sane
The true test is whether you're real
So real that you can appeal to those who feel
Watch as that drive in your heart begins to peel
And the plight of the lost get caught under the wheel
It suddenly won't budge as you begin to care
As you the see the marks are more than just tears
The competitive machine is fed by consumer culture
And the need to become remembered as sculpture
Once your sculpted, what's the next prize
I may be deceived but I see nothing with my eyes
Perhaps I'm blinded, but it' the only way I see
At least when I look in the mirror I feel me

It's all a game
The search for fame and a stake for the name
My life's bane is to insure I'm not lame
That seems rather tame, I've got my own game
To let everyone know I'm the exact same

This quest for metal and prestige
And for people to call me liege
Is never ending and stress inducing
But watch as I start introducing
The new apathetic side of me
He emerges in my dreams
When life seems serene
I try my best to find and glean
What he can teach about life
And how to reduce this strife
Society is free to get what it needs
And the new decrees absolve all fees
Living in a world of tolerance and peace
Where pain is silenced and violence ceased
My eye resist the urge to emerge from slumber
My soul is not even close to becoming encumbered
As I awake, I'm left confused and abused
And my soul is left broken, shattered, and bruised

It's all a game
The search for fame and a stake for the name
My life's bane is to insure I'm not lame
That seems rather tame, I've got my own game
To let everyone know I'm the exact same

This sadness and depression has left me breathless
Wondering how I'm supposed to bandage and stretch this
The ultimate loss is the nonacceptance of self
But watch as I eagerly place myself on the shelf

It's all a game
The search for fame and a stake for the name
My life's bane is to insure I'm not lame
That seems rather tame, I've got my own game
To let everyone know I'm the exact same

LOVE

Love is an action and not a feeling
Love is me placing others ahead of myself
Love is unconditional
Love is forever
Love transcends hate

Love doesn't condemn
Love doesn't mock
Love doesn't bicker
Love doesn't boast

Love heals
Love fights
Love protects
Love breathes
Love listens
Love is God; God is love.
God is perfect.
Hence, love... is perfect

The Phantom Hero

Ever notice the unseen
Stop to dwell on the serene?
I spend most my life in a dream
Not everything is as it seems
We look at the set but not at the backstage
We dwell at the cover instead of the pages
There is work at place in your very soul
In fact, I can tell it's taking its toll
Living your life with no hinges
I watch as an outsider cringing
There is a guardian on the fringes
Protecting your heart from the syringes
The watcher is guarding your back
Your soul is under attack
The demons begin to hack
They start to slash
And your mind crashes
Left with thousands of lashes
And multiple gashes
Left with nothing but ashes
This is the time of victory
The time to restart the story
And return the king to His glory

The phantom hero has an ever-ready eye
If you're looking for him, peer up to the sky
He will never mistreat you or lie
And believe me, the end is nigh

The fight for life can't be won alone
And it's too long to pout or moan
The fighter inside of you is strong
He's been around for very long
The struggle that started from the beginning
All because we all couldn't stop our sinning
The serpent peels our flesh and is skinning
He's fighting for our souls and he's winning
Look at the apathy of the generation in this nation
We don't even care about time or creation
Stuck in our silly games and manipulations
Living life trying to avoid contemplation
The easy times provide no life lessons
Whereas the hard times keep us guessing
Make us rely on something that's greater
Hoping that we meet the end sooner or later

The phantom hero has an ever-ready eye
If you're looking for him, peer up to the sky
He will never mistreat you or lie
And believe me, the end is nigh

I need more knights in these dark nights
I need less nights with these dark knights
Deciphering between black or white
Deciding between wrong and right
I need to regain my sight
So I can finally feel alright

The phantom hero has an ever-ready eye
If you're looking for him, peer up to the sky
He will never mistreat you or lie
And believe me, the end is nigh

Red, White, or True? (Revised)

Stars and stripes are the message of this song
But don't think I've been hating all along
Used to be young and naive, fueled by zeal
I couldn't see that the enemy inside of me was real
All I ever wanted to reach was the American dream
While children in the Middle East scream
Because they live on the wrong side of the green
The light went off a couple years ago
Now I'm whistle blowing to watch as we reap what we sow
The occupy wall street movement is bitching and moaning about unpaid loans and corporate greed
As unmanned drones begin bombing people's homes and cops burst down people's doors for weed
I'm running and chasing laps around those officials pointing caps
Fleeing all over the map, crossing gaps and borders that shouldn't exist
They breed patriotism all over the system, I wish I was imagining this
These spits get more and more depressing
These times sure aren't helping my stressing
Politicians these days... They just keep me guessing

Red, white, or true?
Why am I always feeling blue?
As if society hasn't got a clue
Merely looking for something else to screw
Or consuming whatever else is new

Though all these ramblings may seem monotonous

I'm sampling to get my lyrics on a tour bus

See my name in the flashing lights and stadiums

I am sitting by myself, feeling bummed and dumb

Numb, for seeing all these phonies come

Act like they understand me when they really don't

Wanting to know me, but you really won't

My message will only be heard by a select few

So I can know other people feel the same too

Even with the fame I would feel the exact same

The lights will fade, and my name will be made

My role will be raided, and traded

Stated as they are jaded

I'll be waiting till they are rating my hatings

I'm a pacifist but I'm still hostile to societal rules

That is why I caused the most controversy at school

Merely with words and my simple investigations

Like, perhaps, why is this God's only nation?

They point out Israel's place in God's heart

Does that make it right to start

An entire country by blockading the natives

As the rest of the student block wouldn't give

A shit about what's outside this dock

It makes me shocked at those who mock when they talk

Look at the spinning of the clock, are we winning cause we balk?

Watch the mayhem overseas

Listen to the urgent cries and pleas

Of innocent people asking on their knees, oh please

Yet we continue to bomb cause of a sense of control

But hold on as this causes consequences that take their toll

But that won't change the polls, as Washington is selling their souls

As I scream stop the violence and the meddling

While we continue to petal the metal, peddling

Our own failed form of government

Fuck these old men's establishments

It makes my blood boil

That we sell lives for oil

(sigh)

I'm a damn Shakespeare with this mic

While my foes shake in fear cause of my lyrical scythe

Hamlet won't let you fret cause I bet he'll be the cause of your death (but thanks for the debt!)

Uncle Sam I'm coming for your throat cause you tried to kill my Father

You can't barter cause He's smarter, while you're parting from what you started

Regardless of crooked Sam, I will do what I can

Continue my quest to test things I cling close to my chest

Till the day I die

Cause then, I'll be flying high

Red, white, or true?
Why am I always feeling blue?
As if society hasn't got a clue
Merely looking for something else to screw
Or consuming whatever else is new

While these worries consume my head
People choose to ignore all of the dead
Both outside and inside the states
We don't bother to look at the rates
Instead choosing to live life as a fake
Not realizing all that is at stake
The society itself needs to wake
Rearrange our priorities and goals
Not let our souls be sold to gold
Break hold, break the mold, become bold
Reclaim what was robbed of your childhood
Finally allowing people to be understood
Fall back to the golden rule and loving each other
Becoming united against the enemies as brothers
Fortified, solidified we will take back our lives
And see a brighter day tomorrow, alive...

Red, white, or true?
Why am I always feeling blue?
As if society hasn't got a clue
Merely looking for something else to screw
Or consuming whatever else is new

About the time for the close

As I’m continuing with these woes

All I want is love, a simple revival

Without it there’s a slim chance for survival

2Pac wanted changes

So let’s rearrange this

And restore his mission to this broken nation

Against the Grain

I'll never gain fame
Because I'm not the same
My rhymes aren't shallow or plain
And the message is far from tame
Could call me an outcast or lame
At least my conscience will leave me sane
I'm not calling for cockiness or greed
But for society to become freed
Hopefully plant the seed
To give humanity what it needs

Creativity is declining
As the record labels start signing
The depth of souls I'm mining
While the other hits are whining
And the other stars continue shining
While I cower from the lights in hiding

Since when does entertainment matter more than love?
Have we really lost sight of what matters from above?
Training the youth with endless distractions
And secluding them from interactions
There's no way for me to gain satisfaction
As if nothing I could do can procure a reaction
The shadows of the night are my new refuge
As all the problems mount and become issues
Hoping to fix you, needing tissues cause I miss you
The bondage of vacancy is strong
This journey to freedom shall be long

Creativity is declining
As the record labels start signing
The depth of souls I'm mining
While the other hits are whining
And the other stars continue shining
While I cower from the lights in hiding

I reiterate my truest thoughts
And rationalize what I've been taught
Realizing all I have ever sought is what I've bought
Wondering if I'm heeding my own advice or not

Creativity is declining
As the record labels start signing
The depth of souls I'm mining
While the other hits are whining
And the other stars continue shining
While I cower from the lights in hiding

Vanity's Insanity

Strange how dark poses as light
When the blackness consumes our sight
We fear what we do not see
But not the vacancy in our own glee
Posessions corrupt the mind and soul
Distracting us from our heavenly goal
Our conscience is sold
By seeking for gold
Watch as the light and dark fold
And the world becomes cold
We search for currency as if it were a religion
And take others regardless of permission
This is no mere superstition
Just look at your own ambition

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed

Watch as the Master's whip
Causes you to stumble and trip
The Son of the Morning Star has gone too far
Degrading the human condition, our souls are tarred
Goodness is barred
Don't bother standing guard
This is not a tale of a bard
The striving for money will never be content
And the darkness inside you will never relent
We must break free from the chains of greed
And plant the seeds to destroy the weeds

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed

The fight for freedom will not be easy
In fact, your stomach may become queasy
Spiritual warfare is in the midst of your heart
So don't let the Devil add you to his cart

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed

Perpetual Anxiety (Redux)

Accept nothing less than the best in others

We need to change and start acting like brothers

Ignore the notion of fake happiness and glee

Time to look in the mirror and see

The baggage and darkness you reveal in private

While in front of the masses you remain silent

Confront it with a mighty sword in hand

Slay its potential to corrupt this land

The monster has a tendency to hide yet surprise

Rear its ugly head when least expected, we must confide

Not fight the darkness on our own but with an ally

So that the monster has no ability to run or hide

The death of darkness will never arrive

But we must try our best to survive

Fight it with every ounce of strength we have left

Until the end of days when blackness is bereft

As I continue my quest to test things I cling close to my chest

Fighting on as the demons keep me up all night with their pests

I live with perpetual anxiety

Wondering what I’m trying to be

As my heart keeps pressing along

Trying to do right but always feeling wrong

My mind is ever present and aware

While everyone else seems not to care

I feel more alone in a crowd of people

Than in church by myself in a lonely steeple

A heightened sense of judgment and condemnation

While I sit here silenced but in loud frustration

My heart and mind suppressed by the masses

While everyone's trying to prove they're bad asses

The brutality of reality hits me straight to my heart

As if society has officially added me to their cart

Is there any hope for equality and change?

Or is it impossible to switch and rearrange?

This cold world is getting colder

But watch as I remove the boulders

And bear the weight of the world on my shoulders

A whisper of hope can be heard past the dawn

As I stand here like a knight trying to save the pawns

So come on, I see a light at the end of these crazy days

Watch as we are guided through these hazy rays

Lead us to the light everlasting where sadness is eclipsed

And where tears are erased as the poem ends with an ellipse...

I live with perpetual anxiety

Wondering what I’m trying to be

As my heart keeps pressing along

Trying to do right but always feeling wrong

The will to fight is fading

As the darkness begins shading

Masquerading as loneliness when I’m far from alone

The demons are festering and are fully grown

I live with perpetual anxiety

Wondering what I’m trying to be

As my heart keeps pressing along

Trying to do right but always feeling wrong

The Rising Darkness

Act 1: The Coming Storm

(As the dawn approaches, the knights ready their defense against the coming storm. The dark night of despair and heartbreak awaits. Survival. Revival. Rinse. Repeat. Making sure their feet don't grow weak. The days turn to weeks and their leader begins to speak. Searching for souls to seek. Looking for the hearts of the meek. Before the end, he finishes with the start of his speech.)

Always Alone

I always feel alone

Left to sort shit on my own

Realizing why everyone's getting stoned

Hearing myself as I sleep and moan

Groan, cause of your consistently negative tone

Strip all my flesh, break all my bones

Don't even know all the contacts on my phone

All I ever wanted was a place to call home

A fortress with strong gates, my own type of Rome

The dome of my truest thoughts and wishes

Where my dreams align with my superstitions

But, who do I think I am fooling with these rhymes?

Yet maybe one day, I'll find someone who understands these lines

I feel vacancy

But they drink Hennesy

I feel everything

But they see anything

I am misunderstood

But they are always good

My own shadow lies to me

Looks like a partner in crime but it never says hi to me

But it tries to be the only thing left inside of me

I'm a lover not a fighter but there's a fire burning

An inferno blazing as it's churning

Murdering the remnant of my heart

Rips me from side to side and from part to part

Every girl I've loved doesn't love me back

Forgetting my existence, how fair is that?

I'm trapped, in these raps, my life's out of wack

As if something evil's put my soul under attack

Could you imagine that?

My truest thoughts are trapped in a traveling pack

As if they were presents wrapped for Christmas stacks

Even then, the viewer opens and is confused

Only to be kept in the dust, unused

Tossed around, battered, and bruised

Quick, go to church, but, these pews

Only broadcast opposing views

As I lay awake, stuck in a muse

Strung out beyond normality

My own kind of insanity

While vanity consumes this earth

The curse from my birth

Is the weight of these worries

They make my mind blurry

Doesn't help my case with the jury

I feel vacancy

But they drink Hennesy

I feel everything

But they see anything

I am misunderstood

But they are always good

The world has much apathy

Yet somehow it's evading me

Could the world spare me some?

As I never seem to find the sun

Just when everything's back in place

Despair lands me back flat on my face

I have no trace of how I lost this race

Like all of my caring has gone to waste

I wish I could find a way to erase

The longing to touch base

Stop worrying about what I can't control

As I sit here spewing vomit in a bowl

This life of uncertainty has taken its toll

And the analytical nights begin to take hold

My soul's growing weary and I'm starting to see mold

My boldness withers and what I wished for has come true

Wondering if the raven black streaks help the blue

Feeling like a fool as I drool in my wallowing

As my soul begins to wane and I continue my hollowing

Before long, what makes me human will surely pass

And that fake sense of happiness will come at last.

I feel vacancy

But they drink Hennesy

I feel everything

But they see anything

I am misunderstood

But they are always good

My Own Dark Passenger

These melancholy feelings won't go away

But if I'm honest I don't want to feel ok

These emotions feel more alive than ever

They are the only ones I relate to forever

These hues only show black and blue

Only peace I find is when I snooze

The loss of consciousness is surreal

Better than society, but still far from real

Happiness seems so vain its insane

Its the goddamn bane of my rainy brain

This darkness festering inside is not violent

No red in my life so the palette couldn't be violet

My own dark passenger awaits

Hate to see how it changes my fate

My own slate is never clean or plain

I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Inside my soul is so much gold

But society tells me to mold

Hold on to what I deem most precious

To make my rhymes feel the freshest

But these sessions reveal only what I feel

So real that it will appeal to others who feel

Seal their hearts in tight cause this cold world just might

Take that which they fight and die for and bring it to night

Descend it into the pits and depths of hell

If you can't already tell, I'll never sell

My soul or my heart to be apart

Devil, you can't add me to your cart

My own dark passenger awaits

Hate to see how it changes my fate

My own slate is never clean or plain

I thrive in this place where I feel pain

My emotions are scary cause they are my reality

But in actuality, they make me feel at ease

I know when I look at the mirror there is something there

Not phony or fake, my heart is so big it can bear

The harsh reality of the actualities of this cold world

While every other mirror is broken and curled

Their reality is fantasy yet its similar to mine

But shit, they forgot to bring their minds!

Lagging behind, searching for it but they can't find

What makes us human all along

You're on the right track if you're listening to this song

The body needs food to survive

But the soul needs love to thrive

My own dark passenger awaits

Hate to see how it changes my fate

My own slate is never clean or plain

I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Paranoia of an Insomniac

My eyes are oh so dreary

But clearly, I need you dearly

Please be, please me, please see?

Look at what we could be

See me, could you at least tease me?

My mind is wandering across the universe

No kind of pondering feels worse

How is that love causes so much pain

Like looking for sunshine but finding rain

Such an irony, my optimism begins to wane

I gain nothing from this heart of stain

But everyone else is feeling the same

Feeling lame, knowing most of what I do will be in vain

The only good in my whole life will be its bane

Sleep eludes me

Fools me, school's me

Rules me

I find no source of rest

As my chest is put to the test

It weighs heavily on my soul

So much so it's breaking hold

Making me feel cold

But I'll always be bold

Breaking the mold

A new form of gold

Now drop your cards and fold

Still there's something to be said for being unique

Even if I have several judges looking to critique

And this cold hard world's looking much to bleak

I attempt to the next realm to sneak a peak

My body is ready but my soul's so weak

So many people willing to die for holy causes

Rather than peering into what would cause this

Pause this, rewind this, bind this, can anybody find bliss?

Cling to text with no second guessing

So much so you're making me stressing

I wonder why I feel so left out in the church steeples

God's own people have turned into America's bravest sheople

Regardless, I have just as many faults if not more

Arrogance, pessimism, and always wanting more

But I won't mope cause I have hope in my ability to cope

So nope, I won't end by hanging from the noose of a rope

Sleep eludes me

Fools me, school's me

Rules me

I find no source of rest

As my chest is put to the test

It weigh heavily on my soul

So much so it's breaking hold

Making me feel cold

But I'll always be bold

Breaking the mold

A new form of gold

Now drop your cards and fold

I need somewhere to nest at night

Somewhere where I can start feeling alright

These midnight frights feel not right and the loss of sight and the new heights

Are causing me to lose light and making black and white less tight, I just might lose my might

And my will to fight is starting to feel trite cause I'm always wanting to be alright, tonight

The demons' bites makes the brightness fade

As this music plays

But nothing sways

So go ahead and pray

Nothing left here to slay

My soul's got nothing left to pay

As I ask the Lord...

What do You say?

Sleep eludes me

Fools me, school's me

Rules me

I find no source of rest

As my chest is put to the test

It weigh heavily on my soul

So much so it's breaking hold

Making me feel cold

But I'll always be bold

Breaking the mold

A new form of gold

Now drop your cards and fold

Inter|mission

Above all else, the cure is love.

It always falls back to love and song.

Apathy is destroying the human condition.

The only way to heal is through compassion.

Kindness.

Honesty. 

Faith.

Hope.

But love's the most important.

Let us love each other.

And slay the darkness together.

Act II: First Blood

False Judgments

Hypocrites be bitching

Itching to be snitching

Cross-stitching insults with prayer

They dare ask the Lord to care

His presence is barren

So why are you still staring

At someone you’d never give a shit about

While you continue to spit and pout

What authority have you even gained

From my perspective, everybody’s stained

We’ve all got scars

So enough with the tar

Please start to become real

Stop the court-appeals

And learn to love

Cause it’s stemmed from above

Stop judging what you don't understand

Don't act like you know what it means to be a man

I live the best I can

But your judgments pile up like grains of sand

God, please oh please deliver me from this wretched land

Assumptions are swift and fiery thoughts

Stemming from being wrongly taught

They carry more weight than character

While you sit, point, and stare at her

For being a whore and white trash

Nothing she can do when she's outta cash

Selling herself to gain money and self-esteem

But on your high council has decided and deemed

Her as a harlot and a slut

Without looking at the rotting in your gut

Can't say I'd be different with my observations

The golden rule is just a guideline

So much that it blows my mind

So many know, so few follow it

We could all learn to grow, instead we hollow it

In the end, what goes around comes around

So beware of the words you mutter with that treacherous sound

Stop judging what you can't understand

Don't act like you know what it means to be a man

I live the best I can

But your judgments pile up like grains of sand

God, please oh please deliver me from this wretched land

Lord, how come your place of refuge is rejecting

As if the harshness of the world must become resurrecting

I feel more alone than ever in the pale cathedrals

Feeling dull, as your sermons lull and pull me to sleep

Already feeling like a creep, and a freak, for letting my mind speak

Tell me to be meek, I'm already a geek, my soul's already weak

As your idolatry reeks, even though you pray daily every week

Don't tell me how to live my life

God already gives me enough strife

Stop judging what you can't understand

Don't act like you know what it means to be a man

I live the best I can

But your judgments pile up like grains of sand

God, please oh please deliver me from this wretched land

Vanity's Insanity

Strange how dark poses as light
When the blackness consumes our sight
We fear what we do not see
But not the vacancy in glee
Posessions corrupt the mind and soul
Distracting us from the heavenly goal
Our conscience is sold
By seeking for gold
Watch the light and dark fold
And the world comes cold
We search for currency as if it were religion
And take others regardless of permission
This is no mere superstition
Just look at your ambition

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed

Watch as the Master's whip
Causes one to stumble and trip
The Son of the Morning Star has gone too far
Degrading the human condition, our souls are tarred
Goodness is barred
Don't bother standing guard
This is not a tale of a bard
The striving for money will never be content
And the darkness inside you will never relent
We must break free from the chains of greed
And plant the seeds to destroy the weeds

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed

The fight for freedom will not be easy
In fact, your stomach will become queasy
Spiritual warfare is stirring of your heart
So don't let the Devil add you to his cart

Vanity's insanity
Stand and see
Run and flee
Descend to your knees
And pray to be freed 

Through These Trying Times

Ever see your thoughts unraveling?

In another hemisphere traveling

Every good deed can be unseen

While bad sticks out like fire lit kerosene

I am getting flustered

While everything’s clustered

I lay in my sleepless nights

Panicked, upset by the frights

Sick of these spiritual fights

Too scared to switch the lights

These words get trite

Don’t make them less right

Through these trying times

I cling to these lines

They’re all one of a kind

These are the thoughts in my mind

As I rest and unwind

Writing these strange rhymes

While I still feel sublime

How many damn times can I rhyme in these lines

Before I feel a peace of mind

Through these trying times

Bros are telling me to stop stressing

While girls are far from my blessing

Arrogance is the new appeal

Humility is much too real

I’m a nice guy but I’m not a fool

I watch you sneak a drool at the fools

Who are nothing more than tools

Looking for another trophy to rule

All I ever wanted was something to rely on

Sick of girls playing me like a damn con

A sense of contentment never lasts

And bitter memories keep creeping back

Too much for you to love, not enough to hate

Why must you go, please, why can’t you stay?

Through these trying times

I cling to these lines

They’re all one of a kind

These are the thoughts of my mind

As I rest and unwind

Writing these strange rhymes

While I still feel sublime

How many damn times can I rhyme in these lines

Before I feel a peace of mind

Through these trying times

Liars dominate this landscape

Making it so hard to make

A name for my stake

In this cold place

Of dissent

My descent

To madness is complete

The sadness which makes me weak

The cycle repeats

As do these beats

Seems I can't take the heat

Life's a game of trick or treat

All about who you meet and greet

So take a seat, let me rap a feat

I'll be wanted more than stars in cleets

Regardless, my mind is a mess

Too much stress, not enough rest

Not enough sleep for my weary chest

Lest I be successful with these teary tests

Through these trying times

I cling to these lines

They’re all one of a kind

These are the thoughts within my mind

As I rest and unwind

Writing these strange rhymes

While I still feel sublime

How many damn times can I rhyme in these lines

Before I feel a peace of mind

Through these trying times

(The knights grow weary, and the nights grow long. Thinking the fight was a farse all along. The depths of sadness are nearly reached, and the demons latch onto their souls like leeches. The end is nigh. The wounded leader rises and begins to speak. His message is clear and succinct. Hope begins to take hold. The night begins to fade, and light is seen on the horizon. The moon slowly disappears, and tears are seen at the arrival of the sun...)

Act III: A Glimmer of Hope

Feeling Alright (I'm Soaring)

All these girls act the same

Seeking men for their fame

Attempting to tame, as if they got game

He's sitting there stuttering, forgetting your name

Muttering his mumblings while stumbling cause you're bumbling

The worse you are, the more women will like you

The better you are, the more women will use you

It's a vicious cycle of neglect and abuse

While I sit here all battered and bruised

Not on my body but in my heart

Should've known from the start

Weary of loneliness yet wishing to be apart

Like aiming for a bulls eye but forgetting the darts

Yet I am assured of this

My soul feels bliss

Despite of the dissing

And backstab kissing

Who is gonna be losing in the end

Karma's coming around the bend

In the end, I'll find my significant other

While you sit there crying to your mother

How there are no good men, not even brothers

You smother the bad boys, abandon the good guys

I'm fed up with this and I'm starting to realize

Can't say you won't be full of regrets

Don't come running to me with frets

Tests, or your random sets of being upset

I'm in my own zone of serenity

Nothing you can do to chaos this harmony

I'm feeling better than before

My heart isn't torn

My mind isn't sore

I'm soaring

Though I don't know why

I don't need reasons to fly

Cause I'm feeling alright

The light shades in the dark
Thus begins the spark
So bright it's stark
Like a flying Tony Stark
My lyrics hit the mark
As we fill these parks
Blinded by the light
Seeing the flight
Of the angels at night
It's better than the Wrights
Soaring on wings like eagles
Gollum's gone and it's the return of Smeagol
The darkness is swayed and my sin is paid
As the music plays and evil's slain
The outcome's changing
My soul's not raging
Heart has broken the cage
As I listen to the old Sage
The Author of my pages
This war begins to wage
But He's already paid
The price of my grave

I'm feeling better than before

My heart isn't torn

My mind isn't sore

I'm soaring

Though I don't know why

I don't need reasons to fly

Cause I'm feeling alright

My thoughts are so deep

They’re a damn feat

And they’ll sweep you off of your feet

Rewind that, repeat

Hypnotized by the beat

And a logic so steep

May put you to sleep

As my heart begins to beat

And my emotions run so deep

My language should be fucking bleeped

I'm feeling better than before

My heart doesn't feel torn

My mind isn't bored

I'm soaring

Though I don't know why

I don't need reasons to fly

Cause I'm feeling alright

BE(loved)

So easy to be pessimistic in this dreary place
Stranger still is I can't find where to trace
Or how to erase
Even stare in the face
The start of the despair
The inability to bear
The pain of this big landscape
There is, however, the ultimate escape
Hard to come by but important still
The most expensive life bill
So expensive it kills
Brings my spine to a chill
The feeling is so real
So real but so hard to feel
My soul starts to heal
As if God and the Devil had a deal
My heart is sealed
The elixir of life is love
You know why?
Because it's stemmed from above

Beloved, let's begin to love each other
Start treating each other like brothers
Stuck in this cold but beautiful world together
Don't let the shrill and unpredictable weather
Bring you down whether through war and pain
His love came and removed all the stains
No one left to blame cause He's taken all the shame
So come help resurrect what's left of the shattered masses
And let them know of the God who gives second chances

I'll let you know that I love you
Do whatever I can to make you never feel blue
Don't act like you haven't got a clue
This love has made life have better hues
Things are much clearer, no longer need to check my rear mirror
The past is all but a time period and the future is looking realer
Previously an impossibility but can't you see that this love is changing me
Phasing me, the past's no longer chasing me, I'm finally feeling free
Feeling so much glee, cause my fees are absolved and my chains broken free
These words don't give the sense of peace justice
But believe me and trust this
Never felt so adamant in my whole existence
Usually feeling down but this experience
Is lifting me to a place I've never explored
So high so that I could never feel bored
Life's vacancy is finally filled and killed
Drilled, willed, billed cause it's finally real
The old emptiness begins to peel
Let the demons feed on it for their meals
Like a lion roaring towards veal
Regardless I feel weightless
My soul's freedom's left me breathless
Satan you can't catch this, trap this, wrap this
As I'm rapping this
Cause I'm finally feeling bliss

Beloved, let's begin to love each other
Start treating each other like brothers
Stuck in this cold but beautiful world together
Don't let the shrill and unpredictable weather
Bring you down whether through war and pain
His love came and removed all the stains
No one left to blame cause He's taken all of the shame
So come help resurrect what's left of the shattered masses
And let them know of the God who gives second chances

The brood of vipers will attempt to strike me down
But those damn clowns are so stuck and bound
By the rules they cling to that when they hear this sound
They won't be around, the truth will spin them right round
My convictions are much to sound
While they sit worrying about their pounds
Greed drives their motivations to fill the coffers
Dead man's bones despite the fact their offers
They are scoffers in a world filled with criticism
Causing schisms in God kingdoms cause of their cynicism
Regardless, I must choose to love
It's what God wants
Cause He's the Author stemming from above

Beloved, let's begin to love each other
Start treating each other like brothers
Stuck in this cold but beautiful world together
Don't let the shrill and unpredictable weather
Bring you down whether through war and pain
His love came and removed all the stains
No one left to blame cause He's taken all the shame
So come help resurrect what's left of the shattered masses
And let them know of the God who gives second chances

The Willingness to Die

I am going to die

It's written in the Book of Life

I know I'll fly high

Sigh, it'll be at night

It won't end with a brawl or a fight

Rather just a fading of light

But in the end it'll be alright

Although I just might

Be worried cause of my frights

Realize things aren't so black and white

Before I lose all of my sight

Gotta see what's wrong from right

I am going to die

It's a matter of time

My darkest fears

And all my tears

Will be concealed

And healed

I finally won't feel blue

Lord, I'll finally be with you

Always tough to abide

By these societal laws so I hide

Lied, cried to conceal the sensitive side

So much so I've often thought suicide

But that wouldn't be right

Reminded life'll be alright

So how can I say goodbye

And feel alright

To leave people's side

At this time of night...

I always wondered how I'll go out

Wonder how it'll go down

I really don't think I'll frown

I'll be Potter at the King's crown

My willingness will give me a stone

And I won't be alone

I'll be grown

I won't groan

I'll be home

No need to moan

Everything will fall into place

Everything will be erased

Talk about a clean slate

Talk about fate

I have an irreversible date

With death

I'll lose breath

But I won't mind

I'll lose the mind

The ultimate unwind

The only kind

Now wind the clock

Help me meet Pac

Become an angel in the clouds

Where love and happiness abound

How good does that sound?

Makes me wanna be in the ground

I am going to die

It's just a matter of time

My darkest fears

And all of my tears

Will be concealed

And healed

I finally won't feel blue

Lord, I'll finally be with you

There's no greater love than to die for friends

So please help me Lord, when my life does end

Make it worth it

Comfort my mom cause she won't get it

God, I love her

I'll never meet another

With that much love

So send comfort from above

Help her the way only you can

Send down the one they call the Son of Man

I am going to die

It's a matter of time

My darkest fears

And all of my tears

Will be concealed

And healed

I finally won't feel blue

Lord, I'll finally be with you

Act IV: The Beginning of the End

Knights & Zombies

I have a wandering brain

Full of life and of stains

Watch as I gain fame

My name appearing in the flashing lights

Appealing to the souls who can't sleep at night

Slighted for speaking their heart

Trying to halt you from the start

But they will never break apart

Your heart, mind, and soul

Can't force them into the mold

Trying to make you feel cold

Your trinity's better than gold

And watch as I'm more bold

So far from gone and so far from sold

Destiny's light is clear in sight
So come prepared for the fight

This is the struggle and the war

Between the rich and the poor

Dead and alive

Thrive or survive

Knights & zombies

Knights & zombies

Knights & zombies

Watch as they recuperate

Try their hand at changing fate

This is a dish served cold on their slate

A slate full of dirt and maggots on their plate

I'm feeling great, knowing all that's at stake

Will be won, as the sun shines down on my lyrical gun

This is beyond fun, knowing I've spun chaos in the system

Repairing all of the damage and baggage forced upon the victims

The time to rise is past the sunrise

We will surprise and surmise the truth we all know

So I'm waiting for my knights to come, let's go

This is the struggle and the war

Between the rich and the poor

Dead and alive

Thrive or survive

Knights & zombies

Knights & zombies

Knights & zombies

As we ride with Calvary

We will watch as every

Doubter is empowered in the face of his surprise

And watch as we celebrate, before the sunrise

This is the struggle and the war

Between the rich and the poor

Dead and alive

Thrive or survive

Knights & zombies

Knights & zombies

Knights & zombies

Waiting

Patience is a virtue but it's hard to reach
But it's definitely the best method to teach
The longer the wait, the better the prize
But my eyes will rest until the sunrise
The journey is more important than the destination
And we will be far beyond the point of infatuation
It's the love where souls are connected and restored
Where all our troubles cease and we feel adored
Giving to each other all that we got
Laying in each other's arms after the treacherous trot
Even now, the fantasy remains vividly in my thoughts
As if all the lines in our lives are connected by dots
I wanna hold you in my arms forever
And make the pain feel better
So hold on as we fight life together
Through the darkness and dreary weather
You are the prize at the end of the dawn
You are all I wanted from the moment I spawned
I'm waiting here with my arms open wide
Wishing you were here in them, tonight

                                                            

Deny the Facade and Defy the Odds

Accept nothing less than the best in others
We need to change and start acting like brothers
Ignore the notion of fake happiness and glee
Time to look in the mirror and see
The baggage and darkness you reveal in private
While in front of the masses you remain silent
Confront it with a mighty sword in hand
Slay its potential to corrupt this land
In all honesty, it has moments of emergence
I would know because of my vast experience
The monster has a tendency to hide yet surprise
Rear its ugly head when least expected, we must confide
Not fight the darkness on our own but with an ally
So that the monster has no ability to run or hide
The death of darkness will never arrive
But we must try our best to survive
Fight it with every ounce of strength we have left
Until the end of days when the blackness is bereft
As I continue my quest to test things I cling close to my chest
Fighting on as the demons keep me up all night with their pests

Perpetual Anxiety

My mind is ever present and aware
While everyone else seems not to care
I feel more alone in a crowd of people
Than in church by myself in a lonely steeple
A heightened sense of judgment and condemnation
While I sit here silenced but in very loud frustration
My heart and mind suppressed by the masses
While everyone's trying to prove they're bad asses
The brutality of reality hits me straight to my heart
As if society has officially added me to their cart
Is there any hope for equality and change?
Or is it impossible to switch and rearrange?
This cold world is getting colder
But watch as I remove the boulders
And bear the weight of the world on my shoulders
A whisper of hope can be heard past the dawn
As I stand here like a knight trying to save the pawns
So come on, I see a light at the end of these crazy days
Watch as we are guided through these hazy rays
Lead us to the light everlasting where sadness is eclipsed
And where tears are erased as the poem ends with an ellipse...

To Every Girl I've Ever Loved

Starting to lose compassion for the plight of women
They deviate from good and go straight for the demons
I sit here wishing to give my heart to another
But I'm stuck here always being a brother
So much to offer to those wallowing cause of their hurt
But they avoid me and I'm left here staring at the dirt
I flirt, in spurts, but my hear remains alert
As I see all those losers who are perverts
Snatching women like it's a business venture
But I'd venture to guess that I'd get lost in that adventure
If this was my world, women would have discretion
Then again there would be no more of these rapping sessions
My source of sadness gets me money and fame
This is madness and I am sick of these games
When I look in the mirror everything doesn't peel
I know that my heart, mind, and soul are real
Wishing to be direct and upfront from the start
Like an online sale, I'll add you to my cart
So that we could never be broken apart
This is the truest desire of my heart
It is deep and too surreal to feel
A form of mass appeal that heals
Forget the games, let's scrap the tourney
So take my hand, and let's go on an a journey
Never harmed the heart or soul of a female
Finally allow my love to avail all the way to the veil
Hail, the passion that will never fail or go on sale
I'm ready to set sail in a full-scale quest
Please try your best to stay true to your chest
I stand here with my heart on a platter
Now please, oh please don't let it splatter

The Message

Trying to be deep and positive
But that's not the life we live
So much darkness that my eyes get blacker
The truth is revealed and I spot my attacker
Yet I choose to ignore his crimes against my mind
And see the good in him that's lagging behind
Most are quick to see dark but not light
I'll do what I can to make him feel alright
This type of love is not often revealed
But it's so real, you can feel it appeal
To those lost in the abyss of the modern world
Confused and battered, shattered cause everything's twirled
While these thoughts remain in my mind bottled
Like my soul says stop but my heart's pushes the throttle
Wanna win the emotional lotto, but God knows that couldn't happen
Again feeling frustrated cause Uncle Sam's society's trapping
Mapping people's thoughts to his own concerns
I'm coming here to rescue and to burn
The plastic of those who are bound and stained
Letting them to know to stay and remain
The course, drive the workforce and ride the workhorse and stop living in remorse
But of course, allow the light to be torched and fight the source of this madness
Grab this, nab this, trap this as I rap this
As we all begin to feel bliss knowing the ignorance is missing
Ignore the enemies of the cause and those who are dissing
They will never see the sincerity or charity in my hospitality
It's certainly a rarity, but they won't dare to believe the actuality
Too good to be true and I can't say that I blame them
But this fame hasn't changed me, I'm the exact same in spite of the phlegm
I'm a gem from birth but I'm also cursed
With the worries of the world as the end comes to this verse
 

Apathetic

The world has much apathy
Yet somehow it's evading me
Could the world spare me some?
As I never seem to find the sun
Just when everything's back in place
Despair lands me back flat on my face
I have no trace of how I lost this race
Like all of my caring has gone to waste
I wish I could find a way to erase
The longing to touch base
That I could lose my haste
Stop worrying about what I can't control
As I sit here spewing vomit in a bowl
This life of uncertainty has taken its toll
And the analytical nights begin to take hold
My soul's growing weary and I'm starting to see mold
My boldness withers and what I wished for has come true
Wondering if the raven black streaks help the blue
Feeling like a fool as I drool in my wallowing
As my soul begins to wane and I continue hollowing
Before long, what makes me human will surely pass
And that fake sense of happiness will come at last.

It's official that you're superficial
As I stand outside blowing my whistle
Everybody's clueless cause I've already been threw this
But screw this, I peruse this but nobody cares
All they do is stare, stuck in their perpetual lair
Their pair of eyes used to surprises and goodbyes
Not used to sunrises only rain downpours
Numb their spirits cause your heart's been robbed poor
Expecting disappointment but expressing glee
But you don't have to be a rocket scientist to see
What you're trying to be won't comply with me
I feel and steal only what I see is real
Watch as I peel and you see real
So surreal but you heal, it's definitely a big deal
It's quite a feat to get back up on your feet
You start to speak and you're not sounding bleak
You've mounted Pike's Peak
Your heart isn't feeling weak
You're looking sweet, it's definitely a treat to lay these beats
Knowing that you will play them on repeat
You are amazing and the only thing in your way is your mind
Once you overcome it, you'll see that you truly are one of a kind

Knights & Zombies

I have a wandering brain
Full of life and of stains
Watch as I gain fame
My name appearing in the flashing lights
Appealing to the souls of those who can't sleep at night
Slighted for speaking their heart
Trying to halt you from the start
But they will never break apart
Your heart, mind, and soul
Can't force them into the mold
Trying to make you feel cold
Your trinity is better than gold
And watch as I become more bold
So far from gone and so far from sold
This is the end of their silly games
Nothing they can do to stop this Name

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies

Watch as they recuperate
Try their hand at changing fate
This is a dish best served cold on their slate
A slate full of dirt and maggots on their plate
I'm feeling great, knowing all that's at stake
Will be won, as the sun shines down on my lyrical gun
This is beyond fun, knowing I've spun chaos in the system
Repairing all of the damage and baggage forced upon the victims
The time to rise is past the sunrise
We will surprise and surmise the truth we all know
So I'm waiting for my knights to come, let's go

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies

And as we ride with Calvary
We will watch as every
Doubter cowers in the face of his demise
And watch as we celebrate, before the sunrise

This is the struggle and the war
Between the rich and the poor
Dead and alive
Thrive or survive
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies
Knights & zombies

My Own Dark Passenger

These melancholy feelings won't go away
But if I'm honest I don't want to feel ok
These emotions feel more alive than ever
They are the only ones I relate to forever
These hues only show black and blue
Only peace I find is when I snooze
The loss of consciousness is surreal
Better than society, but still far from real
Happiness seems so vain its insane
Its the goddamn bane of my rainy brain
This darkness festering inside is not violent
No red in my life so the palette could never be violet

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Inside my soul is so much gold
But society tells me to mold
Hold on to what I deem most precious
To make my rhymes feel the freshest
But these sessions reveal only what I feel
So real that it will appeal to others who feel
Seal their hearts in tight cause this cold world just might
Take that which they fight and die for and bring it to night
Descend it into the pits and depths of hell
If you can't already tell, I'll never sell
My soul or my heart to be apart
Devil, you can't add me to your cart

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

My emotions are scary cause they are my reality
But in actuality, they make me feel at ease
I know when I look at the mirror there is something there
Not phony or fake, my heart is so big it can bear
The harsh reality of the actualities of this cold world
While every other mirror is broken and curled
Their reality is fantasy yet its similar to mine
But shit, they forgot to bring their minds!
Lagging behind, searching for it but they can't find
What makes us human all along
You're on the right track if you're listening to this song
The body needs food to survive
But the soul needs love to thrive

My own dark passenger awaits
Hate to see how it will change my fate
My own slate is never clean or plain
I thrive in this place where I feel pain

Concerning My Future Wife(?)

Through all my allegories and fancy stories
And all of my dark fantasies that are boring (stop snoring!)
I don't want any glory
But I am roaring and soaring
Ignoring all of the haters and demonstrators
Traitors who try to take my credit
But I won't ever sweat it (even if it's debit)
Won't ever regret it, but I sitting here dreading
Sweating my number one passion
All of this compassion
Left to waist cause I'm all alone
Left to fend for my own, my weary bones can't grasp the phone
I'm known but I'm not in love
As I watch a pair of doves flying above
A perfect irony right above my head
Mating but not in love, it's all about the bed?
I'm ahead of the game and I'm not searching for fame
Just looking for someone who can tame this sad mind
A girl who isn't lagging behind and who is one of a kind
Get me out of this bind, help me wind the sands of time
Help me finally feel better than just fine
Whether a 10, 9.5, or 9
I'll still pine for more than just your body
I just really want a significant somebody
Fucking sick of being lead on and lied too
Don't play me like a live game, I'm too much to tame
Too intense for your perks, you're nothing but a jerk
I'm convinced I was born on the wrong earth
From my birth, all of my worth since I've spawned was a sacred bond
But again I'm disappointed because these girls never give me what I wanted
As if what I wanted was too much, my love life is truly haunted
To appease me could you please stop being a tease?
On my knees, begging you please, stop making me squeeze these heart fees
But my pleas reach deaf ears, and through all these years and tears all of my fears
Have been realized and my worn out eyes are growing accustomed to the lies of those pretty faces
As I tie my shoelaces and continue walking
Continue acting like nothing's wrong and keep on talking
But it's apparent I'm balking, as my soul starts stalking the impossibility of a soul mate
A woman who isn't flaky, doesn't make me feel achy (or shaky), and who lets me know it's ok
I begin to feel weightless, and fateless, though that's not a word
Better update Webster's cause this sad soul so injured its absurd
Never harming but always feeling harmed
Feeling self pity, but never causing pity
This sad city's streets are feeling too cold for me feet
But the length of this verse in the universe will be a damn feat (ain't it neat?)
I cling to these metaphors and alliterations
My truly tattered and torn heart is splattered
Yet it is flattering to the world cause of the beat
These frustrations never end and I feel defeated
My enemies have won and the sun has set
The night begins to rise, and my soul is dead