The Struggle, The Quest

I'll never stop caring
As my heart starts tearing
As the onlookers begin staring
At the clothes I'm wearing
Look at the flesh, not the fabric
It begins to make me feel sick
That society values cotton and fame
Than the realities of life and pain
Like thinking of the sun with the fall of rain
Is there anyone else who feels the same?
Or do I still have to think lame?
My mind's insane and my hearts it's bane
Like hitting concrete while crossing lanes
The struggles of life will keep me down
Nothing left to do but frown

The struggles are tests
The pinnacle life quest
Brings stress to my chest
Wish I could lay and rest

Unconditional love is real if you try
Never cheat, never steal, never lie
And never let yourself say goodbye
Never leave without a why
Always help them with their z's
As they lay their head and descend to their knees
As your heart beats and your mind weeps
Love isn't about what you want, it's about what they need
So bend your will and live by His decrees
Living for God will never be easy
Many moments will make you queasy
Your blood, sweat, and tears
And every one of your fears
May come to pass
But relief comes at last
Jesus rides past
Forgets my past
And carries me home to the place I belong
And now I forget why I wrote this all along

The struggles and tests
Are my life quests
I lay them on His chest
And am finally able to rest

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I may not have the best six pack, the most clever sense of humor, the cutest face, or the best swagger. But I guarantee you this; no one can take care of you the way I can...

It's All a Game

It's all the same
This vacant search for fame
And a reason to bear the name
Because of our mad game
We hope to leave the outcasts lame
Not realizing all the pain
The severity is insane
I'm barely left sane
The true test is whether you're real
So real that you can appeal to those who feel
Watch as that drive in your heart begins to peel
And the plight of the lost get caught under the wheel
It suddenly won't budge as you begin to care
As you the see the marks are more than just tears
The competitive machine is fed by consumer culture
And the need to become remembered as sculpture
Once your sculpted, what's the next prize
I may be deceived but I see nothing with my eyes
Perhaps I'm blinded, but it' the only way I see
At least when I look in the mirror I feel me

It's all a game
The search for fame and a stake for the name
My life's bane is to insure I'm not lame
That seems rather tame, I've got my own game
To let everyone know I'm the exact same

This quest for metal and prestige
And for people to call me liege
Is never ending and stress inducing
But watch as I start introducing
The new apathetic side of me
He emerges in my dreams
When life seems serene
I try my best to find and glean
What he can teach about life
And how to reduce this strife
Society is free to get what it needs
And the new decrees absolve all fees
Living in a world of tolerance and peace
Where pain is silenced and violence ceased
My eye resist the urge to emerge from slumber
My soul is not even close to becoming encumbered
As I awake, I'm left confused and abused
And my soul is left broken, shattered, and bruised

It's all a game
The search for fame and a stake for the name
My life's bane is to insure I'm not lame
That seems rather tame, I've got my own game
To let everyone know I'm the exact same

This sadness and depression has left me breathless
Wondering how I'm supposed to bandage and stretch this
The ultimate loss is the nonacceptance of self
But watch as I eagerly place myself on the shelf

It's all a game
The search for fame and a stake for the name
My life's bane is to insure I'm not lame
That seems rather tame, I've got my own game
To let everyone know I'm the exact same

LOVE

Love is an action and not a feeling
Love is me placing others ahead of myself
Love is unconditional
Love is forever
Love transcends hate

Love doesn't condemn
Love doesn't mock
Love doesn't bicker
Love doesn't boast

Love heals
Love fights
Love protects
Love breathes
Love listens
Love is God; God is love.
God is perfect.
Hence, love... is perfect

The Phantom Hero

Ever notice the unseen
Stop to dwell on the serene?
I spend most my life in a dream
Not everything is as it seems
We look at the set but not at the backstage
We dwell at the cover instead of the pages
There is work at place in your very soul
In fact, I can tell it's taking its toll
Living your life with no hinges
I watch as an outsider cringing
There is a guardian on the fringes
Protecting your heart from the syringes
The watcher is guarding your back
Your soul is under attack
The demons begin to hack
They start to slash
And your mind crashes
Left with thousands of lashes
And multiple gashes
Left with nothing but ashes
This is the time of victory
The time to restart the story
And return the king to His glory

The phantom hero has an ever-ready eye
If you're looking for him, peer up to the sky
He will never mistreat you or lie
And believe me, the end is nigh

The fight for life can't be won alone
And it's too long to pout or moan
The fighter inside of you is strong
He's been around for very long
The struggle that started from the beginning
All because we all couldn't stop our sinning
The serpent peels our flesh and is skinning
He's fighting for our souls and he's winning
Look at the apathy of the generation in this nation
We don't even care about time or creation
Stuck in our silly games and manipulations
Living life trying to avoid contemplation
The easy times provide no life lessons
Whereas the hard times keep us guessing
Make us rely on something that's greater
Hoping that we meet the end sooner or later

The phantom hero has an ever-ready eye
If you're looking for him, peer up to the sky
He will never mistreat you or lie
And believe me, the end is nigh

I need more knights in these dark nights
I need less nights with these dark knights
Deciphering between black or white
Deciding between wrong and right
I need to regain my sight
So I can finally feel alright

The phantom hero has an ever-ready eye
If you're looking for him, peer up to the sky
He will never mistreat you or lie
And believe me, the end is nigh

Red, White, or True? (Revised)

Stars and stripes are the message of this song
But don't think I've been hating all along
Used to be young and naive, fueled by zeal
I couldn't see that the enemy inside of me was real
All I ever wanted to reach was the American dream
While children in the Middle East scream
Because they live on the wrong side of the green
The light went off a couple years ago
Now I'm whistle blowing to watch as we reap what we sow
The occupy wall street movement is bitching and moaning about unpaid loans and corporate greed
As unmanned drones begin bombing people's homes and cops burst down people's doors for weed
I'm running and chasing laps around those officials pointing caps
Fleeing all over the map, crossing gaps and borders that shouldn't exist
They breed patriotism all over the system, I wish I was imagining this
These spits get more and more depressing
These times sure aren't helping my stressing
Politicians these days... They just keep me guessing

Red, white, or true?
Why am I always feeling blue?
As if society hasn't got a clue
Merely looking for something else to screw
Or consuming whatever else is new

Though all these ramblings may seem monotonous

I'm sampling to get my lyrics on a tour bus

See my name in the flashing lights and stadiums

I am sitting by myself, feeling bummed and dumb

Numb, for seeing all these phonies come

Act like they understand me when they really don't

Wanting to know me, but you really won't

My message will only be heard by a select few

So I can know other people feel the same too

Even with the fame I would feel the exact same

The lights will fade, and my name will be made

My role will be raided, and traded

Stated as they are jaded

I'll be waiting till they are rating my hatings

I'm a pacifist but I'm still hostile to societal rules

That is why I caused the most controversy at school

Merely with words and my simple investigations

Like, perhaps, why is this God's only nation?

They point out Israel's place in God's heart

Does that make it right to start

An entire country by blockading the natives

As the rest of the student block wouldn't give

A shit about what's outside this dock

It makes me shocked at those who mock when they talk

Look at the spinning of the clock, are we winning cause we balk?

Watch the mayhem overseas

Listen to the urgent cries and pleas

Of innocent people asking on their knees, oh please

Yet we continue to bomb cause of a sense of control

But hold on as this causes consequences that take their toll

But that won't change the polls, as Washington is selling their souls

As I scream stop the violence and the meddling

While we continue to petal the metal, peddling

Our own failed form of government

Fuck these old men's establishments

It makes my blood boil

That we sell lives for oil

(sigh)

I'm a damn Shakespeare with this mic

While my foes shake in fear cause of my lyrical scythe

Hamlet won't let you fret cause I bet he'll be the cause of your death (but thanks for the debt!)

Uncle Sam I'm coming for your throat cause you tried to kill my Father

You can't barter cause He's smarter, while you're parting from what you started

Regardless of crooked Sam, I will do what I can

Continue my quest to test things I cling close to my chest

Till the day I die

Cause then, I'll be flying high

Red, white, or true?
Why am I always feeling blue?
As if society hasn't got a clue
Merely looking for something else to screw
Or consuming whatever else is new

While these worries consume my head
People choose to ignore all of the dead
Both outside and inside the states
We don't bother to look at the rates
Instead choosing to live life as a fake
Not realizing all that is at stake
The society itself needs to wake
Rearrange our priorities and goals
Not let our souls be sold to gold
Break hold, break the mold, become bold
Reclaim what was robbed of your childhood
Finally allowing people to be understood
Fall back to the golden rule and loving each other
Becoming united against the enemies as brothers
Fortified, solidified we will take back our lives
And see a brighter day tomorrow, alive...

Red, white, or true?
Why am I always feeling blue?
As if society hasn't got a clue
Merely looking for something else to screw
Or consuming whatever else is new

About the time for the close

As I’m continuing with these woes

All I want is love, a simple revival

Without it there’s a slim chance for survival

2Pac wanted changes

So let’s rearrange this

And restore his mission to this broken nation

Against the Grain

I'll never gain fame
Because I'm not the same
My rhymes aren't shallow or plain
And the message is far from tame
Could call me an outcast or lame
At least my conscience will leave me sane
I'm not calling for cockiness or greed
But for society to become freed
Hopefully plant the seed
To give humanity what it needs

Creativity is declining
As the record labels start signing
The depth of souls I'm mining
While the other hits are whining
And the other stars continue shining
While I cower from the lights in hiding

Since when does entertainment matter more than love?
Have we really lost sight of what matters from above?
Training the youth with endless distractions
And secluding them from interactions
There's no way for me to gain satisfaction
As if nothing I could do can procure a reaction
The shadows of the night are my new refuge
As all the problems mount and become issues
Hoping to fix you, needing tissues cause I miss you
The bondage of vacancy is strong
This journey to freedom shall be long

Creativity is declining
As the record labels start signing
The depth of souls I'm mining
While the other hits are whining
And the other stars continue shining
While I cower from the lights in hiding

I reiterate my truest thoughts
And rationalize what I've been taught
Realizing all I have ever sought is what I've bought
Wondering if I'm heeding my own advice or not

Creativity is declining
As the record labels start signing
The depth of souls I'm mining
While the other hits are whining
And the other stars continue shining
While I cower from the lights in hiding